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My life is the spiritual search, the twisting journey between the opposties of the sensous and the renunciant is the Way to the Wisdom of the World - Sophia, the Soul that I tend by inviting life in, and through reflection generating the meaning that arises from my cunning and playful paritcipation in creation. Join me in this journey, of the serpents path, uniting the delight of the above and below, sublte and gross in the alchemy of becoming fully ourselves while uniting with All things in the sacred lovemaking of life.

Contemplating the simple things in life, a pagan-gnostic-buddhist vision stirred within my mind and a mythos comes to me -

That as humans we have the opportunity to partake of the realms of the gods, and of all of nature. That we are indeed gods and 'God' or that spirt esseence that breathes and weaves all together in cosmic night.

Sophia's gift, the soul birthed from this spirit, perhaps an erotic dance of polar others giving birth to experience gives us the experience of individuality. The sense of being alone or all one, Sophia's gift, our soul partakes of this 'fall into matter', a falling in love, 'for love's sake, I am divided for the chance of union'.

The soul lives between the spirit and the world of the ego. She can therefore partake of light and night, both bliss and despair. She becomes enamored and absorbed in experience and through her feeling nature we are moved upwards to heaven and bliss or downwards to hell and despair. But we have the opportunity to transform all by Love, or perhaps to allow all to live through us in a sacred way. Not through a battle of light and dark, but a return to the originating embrace.

Sophia, as our soul, birth's the ego, and through her embrace of the shades between light
and dark, allows us to plunge into the fullness of life, that we might partake of the cosmos evolving it's potential in all ways. We are driven by her creative nature to aspire to the wholeness and fullness in every experience, therefore all virtues and vices serve in the end, as we learn to choose our path. By arising to our statures as stars in the company of stars, finding her wisdom in every experience, honoring life non-judgementally through eros we return her to her heavenly home as Queen of the Stars, (and up-starts!) of the heights and the depths and find ourselves as soveriegn gods and goddesses, something and no-thing, dissovled to the cosmic dust whence we came, yet eternally shining as a creative dance in the cosmic play, in the compassionate embrace of this mother of the Buddha and all Bodhisattva's. The Goddess that is Wisdom, Sophia.

When I finished Siddhartha my heart opened especally when I read about the river with its "soung of a thousand voices" which spake the sacred OM. When all sorrow and suffering, craving and desire, despair, elation, hope and et. al became one. I wept when he explained that he loves the stone because it is a stone and how he needed to sin to know the grace that is in each sinner and the love for life as it is and not as it should be. WOW. It was a very potent moment for me! Here is some more from the well of inspiration I drew from in this great book.

Siddhartha goes through many stages of life, at first thinking of Samsara (this life) as a game, "perhaps enjoyable played once, twice, ten times - but was it worth playing continuall?" When he started out on his quest for self knowledge he assumed it wasn't worth playing at all and then from his experiences throghout the book, as a Pundit (Scholar), then Samana (renunciant) to meeting Buddha and the teachings, becoming a rich man engrossed in the pleasures and vices of Samsara, and then finally to a listener of life and a lover of his child..he realizes the great secert that the sacred presence of life, vibrating as the word 'OM' vibrates through all of life, and that all of life simply is perfect as it is....all past present and future, sin, forgiveness and grace, life birth renewal and death all exist simulataneously...he learns to love by bowing to what I call sophia , the Wisdom of Experience...by experiencing the suffering and joy of the world he learns to accept the world as it is and everyone and thing as a part of it,a wonderful process of awakening that is at once timeless, boundless and pure.

At the end of the book Siddhartha gives up knowledge and possessions for simplicity in life, being and listening by river as he takes a ferryman as his last teacher. I love this quote "When Siddhartha listened attentively to this river, to this song of a thousand voices (the manyfold ways of being in life)...he heard them all, the whole, the unity; then the great song of a thousand voices consisted in one word: OM - perfection".

He realizes that "Buddha is in the sinner" and that samsara and nirvana are both present in all circumstances. This is a life worth living a world free and awake and aware for all wiling to embrace it!

Siddhartha discovers that "When one is seeking...he only sees the thing that he is seeking...unable to find (or) to absorb anything....Seeking means: to have a goal but finding means to be free, to be receptive, to have no goal"

By throwing away knowledge and teachings and pursuing awareness in a state of presence Siddhartha becomes a Buddha! He recognizes that no one can give wisdom and only one's quest an ripen the fruit of our soul's unfolding, the wish fulfiling jewel OM.

He learns to "distrust doctrines and teachers" although he had many and is reborn as a sovereign liberated man. He realizes that the "potential Buddha must be recognized in you, in everybody" and that "everything that exists is good." He has learned "to love the world....to leave it as it is, to love it and to be glad to belong to it."

Finally siddhartha picks up a stone and talks about how it is a stone and also an animal, how it has been one thing and becomes another and how he loves this stone not simply because it is all these things, but just because it is a stone! "I love it just because it is a stone, because today and now it appears to me as a stone. I see value and meaning in each one of its fine markings and cavities." Makes me thing of the philospher's stone, the unripened stone that is also the wish fulfilling jewel awake and alive, the Buddha nature in us all.

I am truly grateful for this amazing book and the amazing words that come through the human imagination from the awakened mind that is in all, the awakened heart of which we are all a part.

  Hello, I thought I'd share some poems written through me...

A TEACHER IS BOURNE

Scott Duncan Gilliam

Found within Light,

All dreams are attained.

Found Within Love,

Is the end to all pain.

By the release of a shadow,

A Vision's cast clear,

A teacher is born

By the drop of a Tear.

BLOOD RED ROSE

The broken heart waters the flower with blood,

Pain feeds the Soul, accompanying growth.

And the drops won't stop,

but we must remember,

that blood deepens the beautiful rose.

All are an equal part of growing,

The Love, the Pain, the Asking, the Knowing.

Each place has its part in fertilizing the flower,

Unfolding the soul's immortal power.

Offering to the Emptiness

Empty I am complete,

Dissolved I am whole,

Resolved I am lost,

And I am Found, I am Found.

Shekinah

Scott Duncan Gilliam

This Goddess has given me life,

and in that life so sweet;

I draw each breathe in a tenderness,

as precious as a lover's kiss.

I revel in Her Body,

in the touch of my Mother, Lover and Friend,

Realizing that within her presence,

I may never be lonely again.

Ever-present, ever clear,

This beautiful goddess is always here,

Through my every action, hidden behind all fear,

In the shed of every tear,

This Goddess is ever near.

KUNDALINI

Scott Duncan Gilliam

Your words took me and shook me

I could barely see through the nakedness you exposed to me

You bade me to ecstasy

Awakening Kundalini.

I am rising hard to meet you,

longing to feel your seductive touch,

to lose ourselves in the eternal moment

Of indulgent sensual grace.

I dream our souls together stir,

 awakening passionate pleasure-pain.

Our sweating bodies caressing each other,

in our serpent's dance together.

To hear the screaming of your ecstatic frenzy,

and to echo you with my wild panic-cry

Our bodies united together

In Tantric-Passion-Play.

I recently left this post on the Osho pod. I have been thinking of an idea that I believe is very important, a unity of no division. This  allows oneness AND diversity to exist together where each exists as a drop of an ocean united, undivided and unique.

It seems to me pretty obvious that the universe evolves or rather unfurls from potential towards the actual, towards expression. We are possiblities becoming possible, from single celled structures to these complex beings capable of reflecting the myriad possibilites of this cosmic ocean in which we are like Star-Fish!. We are part and parcel of this infinitiy and yet each of us, sits at its center and is our own creator, a coecreator in this mutually evolving, unfurling, being that is becoming. The cirumference is nowhere, beyond imagination, limitless. The center everywhere, each of us a center in this expanding comos of which each is emissary and evolutionary agent thereof. It seems that evolution as one way that life develops has slowed down, on the biological level and that now we are being pulled towards and inner evolution that is more conscious and individual. To me the ultimate evolutionary step is where we realize ourselves in full expression as an individual and as a reflection of each other...a unity without division.

Yes and no. I think its only a choice once we've realized that we do have a choice. Before that we are subject to a lot of unconscious and external influeces that affect us in ways that precluded choices. Ever tired to choose to be happy after getting really really activated!? Of course as we grow and evovle into knowing ourself we can choose to accept things as they or ourselves as we are, and thuse choose to take the high road and to be happy. Basically I believe that we are part of a larger whole where our choices are not always conscious or in our control.

Contemplating the simple things in life, a pagan-gnostic-buddhist vision stirred within my mind and a mythos comes to me -

That as humans we have the opportunity to partake of the realms of the gods, and of all of nature. That we are indeed gods and 'God' or that spirt essence that breathes and weaves all together in cosmic night.

Sophia's gift, the soul birthed from this spirit, perhaps an erotic dance of polar others giving birth to experience gives us the experience of individuality. The sense of being alone or all one, Sophia's gift, our soul partakes of this 'fall into matter', a falling in love, 'for love's sake, I am divided for the chance of union'.

The soul lives between the spirit and the world of the ego. She can therefore partake of light and night, both bliss and despair. She becomes enamored and absorbed in experience and through her feeling nature we are moved upwards to heaven and bliss or downwards to hell and despair. But we have the opportunity to transform all by Love, or perhaps to allow all to live through us in a sacred way. Not through a battle of light and dark, but a return to the originating embrace.

Sophia, as our soul, birth's the ego, and through her embrace of the shades between light and dark, allows us to plunge into the fullness of life, that we might partake of the cosmos evolving it's potential in all ways. We are driven by her creative nature to aspire to the wholeness and fullness in every experience, therefore all virtues and vices serve in the end, as we learn to choose our path. By arising to our statures as stars in the company of stars, finding her wisdom in every experience, honoring life non-judgementally through eros we return her to her heavenly home as Queen of the Stars, (and up-starts!) of the heights and the depths and find ourselves as soveriegn gods and goddesses, something and no-thing, dissovled to the cosmic dust whence we came, yet eternally shining as a creative dance in the cosmic play, in the compassionate embrace of this mother of the Buddha and all Bodhisattva's. The Goddess that is Wisdom, Sophia.

 When I read Siddhartha, by Hesse for the first time, my heart opened when the river with its "song of a thousand voices" spoke OM. When all sorrow and suffering, craving and desire, despair, elation, hope and et. al became one. I wept when he explained that he loves the stone because it is a stone and how he needed to sin to know the grace that is in each sinner and the love for life as it is and not as it should be. WOW. It was a very potent moment for me!

Siddhartha goes through many stages of life, at first thinking of Samsara (this life) as a game, "perhaps enjoyable played once, twice, ten times - but was it worth playing continuall?" When he started out on his quest for self knowledge he assumed it wasn't worth playing at all and then from his experiences throghout the book, as a Pundit (Scholar), then Samana (renunciant) to meeting Buddha and the teachings, becoming a rich man engrossed in the pleasures and vices of Samsara, and then finally to a listener of life and a lover of his child..he realizes the great secert that the sacred presence of life, vibrating as the word 'OM' vibrates through all of life, and that all of life simply is perfect as it is....all past present and future, sin, forgiveness and grace, life birth renewal and death all exist simulataneously...he learns to love by bowing to what I call sophia , the Wisdom of Experience...by experiencing the suffering and joy of the world he learns to accept the world as it is and everyone and thing as a part of it,a wonderful process of awakening that is at once timeless, boundless and pure.

At the end of the book Siddhartha gives up knowledge and possessions for simplicity in life, being and listening by river as he takes a ferryman as his last teacher. I love this quote "When Siddhartha listened attentively to this river, to this song of a thousand voices (the manyfold ways of being in life)...he heard them all, the whole, the unity; then the great song of a thousand voices consisted in one word: OM - perfection".

He realizes that "Buddha is in the sinner" and that samsara and nirvana are both present in all circumstances. This is a life worth living a world free and awake and aware for all wiling to embrace it!

Siddhartha discovers that "When one is seeking...he only sees the thing that he is seeking...unable to find (or) to absorb anything....Seeking means: to have a goal but finding means to be free, to be receptive, to have no goal"

By throwing away knowledge and teachings and pursuing awareness in a state of presence Siddhartha becomes a Buddha! He recognizes that no one can give wisdom and only one's quest an ripen the fruit of our soul's unfolding, the wish fulfiling jewel OM.

He learns to "distrust doctrines and teachers" although he had many and is reborn as a sovereign liberated man. He realizes that the "potential Buddha must be recognized in you, in everybody" and that "everything that exists is good." He has learned "to love the world....to leave it as it is, to love it and to be glad to belong to it."

Finally siddhartha picks up a stone and talks about how it is a stone and also an animal, how it has been one thing and becomes another and how he loves this stone not simply because it is all these things, but just because it is a stone! "I love it just because it is a stone, because today and now it appears to me as a stone. I see value and meaning in each one of its fine markings and cavities." Makes me thing of the philospher's stone, the unripened stone that is also the wish fulfilling jewel awake and alive, the Buddha nature in us all.

I am truly grateful for this amazing book and the amazing words that come through the human imagination from the awakened mind that is in all, the awakened heart of which we are all a part.

Hello folks, I thought I'd share some of my understandings about various topics in this manner, here's one about kundalini yoga


prana and vayu are 2 names used interchangeably referring to the same energy.

Vayu manifests as prana and its subtle forms called:
1.Udana-Our creative expression, upward moving spirituality.
2. Apana-The manifesting current into the world. Elimination and detoxification.
3. Samana-The equalizing force of the universe.
4. Vyana. The outward circulating force of the universe.
5. Prana-the vital force of all creation.


The ascent up the chakras is the path of enlightenment. The decent from the crown chakra down to the base of the spine is the path of manifestation. Together the ascent and the descent comprise the path of liberation.

the yogi works with these 2 currents ( prana, apana) to balance them in the center nadi, or shushumna. there are 3 main nadis. ida, on the left side referring to calm, female, manifest etc. pingala on the right, which refers to male, unmanifest, active. there are many other descriptive words that work. they are representative of the duality of all reality. if we observe in all things our mind plays the trick of duality.

the goal is to balance prana and apana so that the energy of ida and pingala can start pouring into the shushuma which is the central channel, the channel where the chakras reside. this is when maha- kundalini can arise within us because of the balance our dual nature into unified nature. then kundalini, also known as shakti can transmute our attatchment desires into our desires to become liberated.

the source of both is desire, desire is neither good or bad but how we choose to work with desire is the trick. kundalini practice is just the way to transmute desire from working against our mind so that we have to fight against it, into working with our mind because our soul and mind have the same goal, unifying our goal to reside in absolute bliss of oneness.

some of the applicable techniques for achieving this is all of the pranayams reffered to in the great yoga manuals such as patanjali yoga sutras and hatha yoga pradipika. most commonly known for this practice is kapalabhati , or rapid diaphram breathing in which ( with the right state of mind) will forceably push the prana into the shushumna and heat the body so that kundalini can awaken.

other practices include visualizations, bhuti shuddhi, pure intention, and anything else which is creative and oriented towards the goal.

namaste